So... I was hanging out on Facebook and I looked over at the ad's they post on the right side and I saw this ad

So being bored and curious I clicked on it.

I am so happy I did!

I was linked to a this page.

Excited, nervous, giddy... that's a few things I feel about doing this!

If you have a sketch book or any artistic ability you should check this out!!

Mom's never get a break....

I've had a frustrating day; I've already vacuumed the living room floor 3 times with in and hour!I had to call off work because I have no sitter, so I lose out on my holiday pay. I'm feeling blue in general.

So I laid the kids down for their naps or at least a chance to vacuum one more time without them getting more Cheeztiz on the floor! I put Jack in bed with a Ninja Turtle movie and Emily with Little Mermaid. And about 20 Min's. later I hear.... Jack screaming "Cowabunga!!" and Emily singing {off key and 3 words behind} "Under the Sea".

I love them... even though they sabotage my house cleaning...

So I have started a Tumblr... totally confused how to use it!!!

Anybody got tips?

ashleighcolleen.tumblr.com/

Things I've been working on...

Doing this!

Check it out.

Today as I drove to work with the windows down, a dandelion seed rushed through the window with the breeze.

The seed got suck in my hair.

I picked it out... and thought.

"This is carrying someone's wish."

So, instead of just tossing it to the side. I held my hand out the window and thought to myself...

"Come true"

I hope the person that might have wished on that dandelion seed gets their wish.

Little post

Nothing much to write about... went on a very small day-date with the husband this morning.

We had to run to the BMV so his sister watched the kids and he surprised with going to a discount book store. I got a copy of Garden Spells by Sarah Addison Allen, which is a great story!! And I got a copy of a book of EE Cummings poems, love this guy! Well now to put the kids down for a nap and make a salad for lunch.

Itching for a tattoo...

So I have been itching to get another tattoo.

And I have been going back and forth over what to get and where to get it.

But I have finally decided what and where!

I can not wait to get it, but I have to wait until my birthday... FEBRUARY! :(

So long!! But it will be worth it and it will look awesome!!!

I just cant wait!

On another note, mother's day is tomorrow.

I have been a mother for almost 4 years... WOW! Its scary to think that I

have been responsible for 2 kids and they have made it so far!

My kids are amazing and so different from each in looks and personality:

Jack Henry, my oldest, little red head with a mind that never misses anything and is always running! He is curious about everything.

Sometimes he makes us call him Iron Man... which is OK with me!

He is a fan of Johnny Cash... I mean come on,

a 3 almost 4 year lovin' the man in black... that's pretty awesome!

While he's a little high strung {like his mommy}, he is loving and intelligent

and oh so special to me... he made me a mommy and tells me he loves me at random times,

I hope that never goes away!

Emily Danica, my baby, sweet little blond curls and always has marker on her hands

{if not everywhere else!}.

She sees the beauty in everything, always the first to help someone out

and to give a hug and ask if your OK.

She knows the words and sings Bob Marley's 3 Little Birds... and her favorite thing to say is

"It's OK!". She calls me mama, which I think is the cutest thing!

She is my little artist and sees the world through artists eyes.

She is laid back like her daddy. She is a girly girl, she has to have a dress on and loves to play with make up. She has a heart of gold and hope that never gets jaded.

a total stranger one black day

knocked living the hell out of me--

who found forgiveness hard because

my(as it happened)self he was

-but now that fiend and i are such

immortal friends the other's each

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if everything happens that can't be done (and anything's righter than books could plan) the stupidest teacher will almost guess (with a run skip around we go yes) there's nothing as something as one one hasn't a why or because or although (and buds know better than books don't grow) one's anything old being everything new (with a what which around we come who) one's everyanything so so world is a leaf so tree is a bough (and birds sing sweeter than books tell how) so here is away and so your is a my (with a down up around again fly) forever was never till now now i love you and you love me (and books are shutter than books can be) and deep in the high that does nothing but fall (with a shout each around we go all) there's somebody calling who's we we're anything brighter than even the sun (we're everything greater than books might mean) we're everanything more than believe (with a spin leap alive we're alive) we're wonderful one times one I am in love with ee cummings! He is amazing. So amazing that I even got a line from one of his poems tattooed on me!!!!!!!

Sometimes I wonder what could-a been or get into the I-wish-I-was...

I wish I could be more elegant or more in style.

I wish I would have went to college and really took my talents where I'm sure they will never go with no time for college and no time for silly dreams.

I wonder what would my life have become if I didn't make those hard choices I made all those year ago... would I have meet my husband, been a mother, found true-real-this-is-what-people-search-eternities-for kinda LOVE.

Would I have been a mother?

I'd say no to this one. Not because I don't love being a mom, but because I didn't have that powerful love I mentioned before so I probably wouldn't of had any offspring from that not-really-love relationship. Doesn't seem fair to those non-existent babies. Anyway...

I wish I was a better friend, daughter, sister, wife, mother...

Sometimes I feel like I do just the bare bones of the work it takes to maintain those all to precious relationships.

I wish I had the courage to fail.

To leap off the edge knowing I might not make it to the other edge... and be OK with it, either way.

I wonder what I would have become in that past life that I left... more unhappy I'm sure.

What would I have done if the divine wisdom or fate or some magic didn't lead me to my love....

I can say for sure I would have never been truly loved or truly loved anyone.

I don't really know the reason for this post. Just getting a few thoughts out. It all seems so silly when you see it all on a screen staring back at you...

It all seems silly to think of what could have been when I have right now asking for more juice and giving me little kisses that end in a big loud MUAH!

It seems silly to think what I could be when I am loved for what I am.

When the man I love loves me for my perfectly imperfect manners, my loud inelegant rambles and my morning breathe

{well maybe not that last part.}

Sometimes everything seems silly that floats around in my head.