April 30, 2010

Sometimes I wonder what could-a been or get into the I-wish-I-was...
I wish I could be more elegant or more in style.
I wish I would have went to college and really took my talents where I'm sure they will never go with no time for college and no time for silly dreams.
I wonder what would my life have become if I didn't make those hard choices I made all those year ago... would I have meet my husband, been a mother, found true-real-this-is-what-people-search-eternities-for kinda LOVE.
Would I have been a mother?
I'd say no to this one. Not because I don't love being a mom, but because I didn't have that powerful love I mentioned before so I probably wouldn't of had any offspring from that not-really-love relationship. Doesn't seem fair to those non-existent babies. Anyway...
I wish I was a better friend, daughter, sister, wife, mother...
Sometimes I feel like I do just the bare bones of the work it takes to maintain those all to precious relationships.
I wish I had the courage to fail.
To leap off the edge knowing I might not make it to the other edge... and be OK with it, either way.
I wonder what I would have become in that past life that I left... more unhappy I'm sure.
What would I have done if the divine wisdom or fate or some magic didn't lead me to my love....
I can say for sure I would have never been truly loved or truly loved anyone.

I don't really know the reason for this post. Just getting a few thoughts out. It all seems so silly when you see it all on a screen staring back at you...
It all seems silly to think of what could have been when I have right now asking for more juice and giving me little kisses that end in a big loud MUAH!
It seems silly to think what I could be when I am loved for what I am.
When the man I love loves me for my perfectly imperfect manners, my loud inelegant rambles and my morning breathe
{well maybe not that last part.}

Sometimes everything seems silly that floats around in my head.

April 28, 2010

You know whats irritating? Wanting to draw, feeling like at this very moment you could draw anything put in front of you and you would knock it out of the park, and then sitting down with paper ready... and then... no pencil!!!!


April 26, 2010

No phone, bored!

New drawings. Enjoy!

There is something so perfect about this girl... shes my favorite... so far!
The last 2 are one's I did months ago... but here they are for you now!

April 24, 2010

April 22, 2010

Ok, so I have been away a long time! But like the post before shows I was doing something! And besides drawing I've moved into a new house

And I have a new J-O-B... :/
Life's been a bit... chaotic for me lately. But I have been searching the blog world and discovering new wonderful people and blogs and ideas!!
So I am not completely lost to this world.
I've also made a little craft nook in my room. It's the teenyist tinyist craft space ever made!!! But I LOVE it!!! Maybe I'll post a pic of it later.

So other news... hmmm...
Jacks potty trained!!!! YAY! Emily is not, but thats ok, she's still so little.
Hmm... what else...
Honestly theres nothing going on in my life worth blogging about.... maybe next time.

Busy Bee...

So I haven't been completely lazy!! I've been drawing non-stop... here are some of the drawings... just to prove I was doing SOMETHING while I was away!